omg i totally forgot until i had a blog. I been wayy too fucking busy with school and i never had the time to do anything remotely relaxing. Although i still have assignments due now i decided that today will be a rest day.

anyway its quite hard to sum up the past 10 weeks into this page but a lot has happened and i am currently finishing post-production for my new short-film "Staring Into The Sun_".

We had to make a short film based on the theme of an autobiography. I'm not really a fan of non-fiction so i didnt quite like the theme but then I thought, why not marry non-fiction narrative with art cinema. Hence, i decided to create a story that contains a series of re-enactments from my last relationship to show how it deteoriated over time, while the voiceover talks about humans' fascination with staring into the sun. How it always looks so beautiful initially and then as you continue staring at it, first tears start rolling down and if you still remain persistent, you may just face the possibility of going blind.

I also added another layer into the story by explaining how the relationship affected me, how i turned into a self-abusive person.

We did the shoot last weekend and I had the biggest crew in class, about 8 of us and initially I was quite worried as to how i could handle them but later it seemed to be a breeze working with them. Very professional and productive and i'm sure they all enjoyed the shoot too. It was very draining not only cos of the long hours but also my habit of constantly thinking. I am always thinking. Sometimes it irritates me.

I've also clocked about 32 hours of editing time so far and i'm still left with credits, sound design and some touching up. It's a pretty experimental film. There were lots of improvised lighting, experimental camera angles and movements and even the editing. Taking into consideration this is the first time in my life im using final cut pro. I think i've done a pretty decent job so far. My only grouse was that since i was required to act in it, and we did not get proper lights or monitors, most of the shots werent what i had in mind. But even so, im pleased that the cameraguy managed to understand what i was saying and so theres a bit of salvation there.

The whole thing was shot in HD on a Canon XLH1 camera.

I am both nervous yet looking forward to this. Not only because people will finally get to see what i am capable off but also to get the whole incident out of my system.

I made a little teaser http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hC2lxS8n3ck and i will probably make a proper trailer tomorow.