Officially the worst shoot I ever been to in my life. Everything was so badly organised, badly planned...no, there was almost no planning at all.

And then there was a director who didnt know what she wanted, she doesnt even know how a camera works and it was simply just her taking everyone for granted.

What irritated me though was the fact that that 3 day period was the ONLY time in my entire holidays where I could actually go for a holiday and my brother was already going to KL. I decided to sacrifice that for the shoot and in the end, now all I have is regret. And I can;t go next week cos of fucking SAF and I need to go defer for the fucking RT.

So now I go back to school in 10 days without a proper holiday and officially, the 4th year in a row I'm stuck in Singapore because I either have no time, no money or too many retards bogging me down.

FML.


Happy New Year BTW.

2010 was a pretty good year in all areas except finances and sports. I was mostly broke throughout the entire year til near the end when I had money to splurge on myself and for sports, well I only scored 1 goal this entire year for SSFC and I couldnt even clear my IPPT without something fucking up.

Oh well, here's to a better 2011.

Seriously WTF

I been waiting the whole week to see Ferry Corsten live at Zouk and I specifically made christmas night free so I could go and then the weather has to come and fuck everything up, just as always.

One by one people start bailing and in the end now I'm stuck at home on a Saturday night with fucking nothing to do.

I'm totally loving this time of the year....for the first time I don't have to think about work at all...save for the impending shoot and the best part is I finally can splurge on things without feeling too guilty.

So in the past 2 days, I've bought myself a new pair of shoes, a new t-shirt, a new wallet, a DVI to VGA adapter, blank DVDs,a new pair of earphones and a couple of xmas gifts and I'm just going to end it all by buying a new shirt and a couple more t-shirts

yup.

Is it true that as you get older, you sense of humour goes haywire too? Realise when old people tell a joke, none of us get it but people from their generation burst into laughter? How and why does this happen and how to curb it?

Its funny though, I get along well with people from any age group be it teens or old folks...no awkward moments. Right now I can still bluff people about my real age but I wonder how long more I can continue doing this

my back and right foot hurts like a bitch.

Work is finally over and I was surprised we got paid on the spot, in cash somemore...suddenly I'm not broke anymore and I have money for christmas! First thing I gotta do is buy new shoes as well as some new shirts and a wallet...I havent bought anything for myself in a year.

Yesterday's match was gruelling to say the least..it's sad that as a striker, I had to do plenty of dirty work like hassling their defenders and covering our non-existant midfield...and I dont know how but I pulled a muscle on my back and I got stomped really hard on my foot and now its swollen.

IPPT this thursday hope I ace it so I can finally enjoy a peaceful holiday season.

Christmas is coming and the invites are coming in, I'm feeling it a bit more than I did last year which is great and I'm really happy I can finally start buying things I have been dying to buy but couldnt cos of a lack of funds..

However, I need to master the art of saving up money so I dont end up in a zero situation again.

you're seriously not worth my time.

last saturday i swallowed a lot of pride to finally talk to you and try to put the past behind after all the shit you did and also decided to have you back on fb

and now you just decide to delete me off again just because your boyfriend is not happy?

hey you know what? Just go fuck yourself =)

fuck the workload just got increased...to cover up for other peoples incompetencies now I have to do sound design/efx for a 2 min long intense sequence by thursday wtf?!

I seriously hate working with untalented, unmotivated and incompetent people, seriously...they just drag me down into their puddle of shit which I have no interest in whatsoever.

my ex re-added me on facebook, and I don't know, its a good thing I guess, one less enemy to bother about. Its highly ironic that she admitted that she did screw things up for me, and shes only saying this because her current bf is doing to her, what she did to me. So much for karma lol.

Well that aside, I really don't know what to do now, I'm stuck with plenty of work, I have to deal with a fucking retarded bureaucratic system in school that cant make up its fucking mind.

I feel like writing songs, lyrics, whatever. I need to start preparing for the diploma film shoot. I need to get ready for 2011. I think 2010 has been a pretty good year for me, almost in every single aspect except finance.

I'm single but I dont wanna be single yet I feel very comfortable being single. I saw some article on MSN the other day that listed effects of singlehood addiction and every single point made sense to me...So I guess that's what the issue is. But how do I curb it? I want to give people a chance but I don't know how to break the barrier. I know there are girls out there who are waiting for me but urrgghhh I don't know what to do about it.

I could do the usual and just focus on work, selfish I know but it works. I'm just afraid that this might turn out to be a distraction.

What am I going to do?

i'm excited for my upcoming projects, i just wish I have money so i can buy stuff for myself, I totally forgot what retail therapy feels like with your own money ever since I stopped working.

I made a sacrifice, now i'm dealing with the consequences, I just hope its all worth it in the end. I am talented and I know it, now I have to prove myself first.

My right ear is still ringing and its 5pm and I just woke up and yesterday was certainly one of the most epic days ever. Let me just try to recall in chronological order.

I woke up in the morning and got ready to head down to Punggol Sec for the D2D game against coca cola sports club. A match where I was making my return to the league after a 5 month absence and I really wanted to end my 12 month goal drought.

Alas, it was not to be as we lost 3-1 but I did provide the assist for the goal we scored, a sidefooted chip from our own half that released 2 of our strikers clear 2 on 1 with the goalkeeper.

After the match, it was time to head home and prepare to meet the guys at Harbourfront for Zoukout.

And in 2008, I mentioned how cursed I was to bump into my ex, as in she was the very first person I bumped into the moment I entered Siloso. Well last night, it went one step further, I got out of harbourfront station, looking for ravin, I turned in from the escalator towards cheers and BAM, of all the people in the world, I had to bump into my ex AGAIN.

After a few seconds of stunned awkwardness, I decided to just say hi and ask her if she was waiting for ravin as well, well she was meeting her friend so I tried to have small talk while waiting for my friends to arrive. It was just.....weird I guess. And she told me she quit school in her 4th year. No comment.

So anyway, we polish a couple of jim beams before we head into the monorail thingy into Sentosa, crowded as fuck but we got there anyway and we managed to get tagged and we started to polish the 2 bottles we brought, Black and White label. I was already started to get high and at around 12+, we decided to go in.

Boy it was crowded as fuck, the music was good, i lost count how many people i elbowed and shoved in the face, trying to protect my female friends from getting squished.

Some white girl kept eyeing me throughout Tiesto's set and then later, she and her friends decided to move right in front of us and that girl just started coming closer and closer and eventually started grinding me.

So I find out her name is Marie and she's from Norway and okay you want to grind go ahead, she was quite cute and had a big ass and her grinding started to get more and more violent, almost like banging. It was starting to hurt my balls lol.

After that in the middle of Guetta's set her friends had to leave so she just touched my face and said goodbye. Not that I cared much but I was thirsty as fuck and for about 45 mins, Ravin and I hung out together cos everyone else was scattered all over the place.

So after everything was over, we reunited again at the main entrance at about 7+am and decided to head home.

And it was fucking hard finding a cab this morning.

And I missed RT I'm just gonna go on Thursday and see if I can apply for a make-up session.

I was at macs just now having my dinner when this fucking india family of 3, father, mother and abomination were sitting 2 tables away and throughout the whole fucking time, the little piece of shit just kept screaming. If that wasnt irritating enough, the parents were just oblivious to it throughout the whole time. I really wanted to go there and chokeslam the stupid fuck on the table in front of the parents and right when i tweeted about it, they finally developed a brain and left.

fucking chao india fucks come here act like they above the law can do whatever they want and get away with it fuckers.

Just when you thought there were enough Singaporeans with shitty etiquette and behaviour, the govt has to import these 3rd world shits into this country to continue this shit.

Thats why I always say, Singapore is a 1st world wannabe country with 3rd world people. You cant deny that statement.

at this time, 2 years ago, I remember finishing my RT session at Khatib camp and then heading down to the national stadium alone to watch the ASEAN cup semi finals between Singapore and Vietnam in which Singapore lost 1-0.

Now fast forward 2 years later, I come back home to see Singapore lose to Vietnam 1-0 again.

For a team full of foreigners and 6ft tall players who play professionally, they cant even string at least 3 passes together to beat the Vietnamese who had only 10 men.

Now i remember why i gave up on Singapore. Holland doesnt disappoint me that much.

I'm bored so i decided to start a twitter trending topic #indemocraticsingapore..

i adjusted some parts from the original score and it sounds a bit more dynamic...i still need to figure out how the EQ works...totally hate being so clueless but i gotta learn as much as i can and not try to depend, independence is key to surviving.

4 more days to zoukout!!! sooo exciting man, looking forward to it.

am i really asexual?

Wow I just found an old friend, in fact my very first best friend (circa 1989) from kindergarten days on Facebook. Now what's interesting is the very first time we met, we ended up fighting and I pushed him down the stairs and he ended up with a gash on his chin, and the scar is still there even up to now..

Whats amazing is this guy was born on the same day as me, in the same hospital, same ward, just a few hours apart. He was from a pretty poor family and lived with his mum and I remember his mum, she was a really nice lady who even though she was poor, would still take the effort to buy sweets for me for no reason at all.

He used to be very good with computers back then and we kind of lost contact after secondary school and now I just found out hes got a job in the IT industry and he just got married. Supremely proud of him, for being able to make it that far and I'm really glad to have found him back and his mum still remembers me.

I need to pay them a visit soon, these kinda people are worth treasuring.

first time I'm blogging at work

I'm fucking lucky my lecturer think my work is good, save for a few adjustments that could be made to further improve on it.

Monday blues, I totally forgot to get my morning coffee and I was just feeling sleepy the whole day.

I have a lot of work to do tomorrow arrgghhh

I have to wake up in 6 hours time for work but I'm not sleepy yet.

I spent the past couple of hours youtubing away, havent done that in a while...miss the good music from the 90s and of course replaying stuff by Crotchduster, absolutely LOVE the band, they seriously deserve a grammy.

6 more days to ZoukOut can't fucking wait!

my hamstring feels weird, like sore-weird.

And I don't know if I accidentally applied invisibility cream or something but just now when I was in the bus 27 standing as usual I don't understand why everyone was standing so close to me, especially this makchik tudung who was standing right in front of me oh my fucking god there was no space at all for that 20 mins, was she hoping I would grind her or something?

fucking morons.

and i just remembered, on fri night at zouk, some white dude grabbed my butt....continuing my tradition of unintentionally turning guys on. fml.

I spent my saturday night at home! Felt damn weird though I did go down a bit with my brother and then later with A. So it wasnt that bad.

RT today and I'm already up cos of the music from the malay wedding downstairs.

I don't know why these people have to park their cars all over the place when theres a multi-storey carpark nearby. fucking stupid.

http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Asia/Story/STIStory_610450.html

very nice, so more ching chong ah tiongs to come here and contribute to the pollution levels?

Hahaha crap what the hell happened last night

I was quite disappointed that Dirty South's set only lasted 2 hours, and it was pretty much done by 330am. And i had plenty to drink because my friend did not want to finish his drink since he was riding, I had to finish for him. It was weird seeing so many drunk people even before it was 12am and by 3am, the whole place was a mess.

Did bump into a few familiar people though. Now I'm up feeling stoned as fuck and I'm broke goddamnit.

Dirty South tonight at Zouk!!

Last time I saw him was at ZoukOut 2008 and I was impressed. Really hope I have a great night tonight, been a lonnnggg time since I last went to Zouk.

ok here's why i havent logged in in a while

i forgot my password lol

well im back anyway

so the diploma pitch results were out a couple of days back and sadly, my story wasnt selected, however, i was selected to direct someone else's story...so be it. Better than nothing.

I dont have a love life but I'm happy this way

I am currently working on a project as part of my industrial attachment...working with my lecturer and im solely in charge of scoring and composing music for an upcoming animated film (that is a blatant ripoff of godzilla, cloverfield, transformers and ultraman) but the guy making it was involved in films like LOTR, King Kong and Avatar.

I won't bother much about the animation but what irks me is I feel like I'm doing a great job with the music, trying to salvage the film by making it more original but he prefers some old school 70s ultraman trumpety shit. Ha what a prick. And i absolutely hate it when he keeps insisting to speak to my lecturer when Im the one composing music. Then hire me for fuck?

Anyway ZoukOut is coming, I'm in the midst of RT (good to finally start conditioning my body again) and of course, year end festivities which is usually full of alcohol.

Oh and I just recovered from chicken pox...at the tender age of 26.

I am now going to revisit past entries to see how I was at this time in previous years.

I am very proud of the fact that I managed to maintain this blog for quite some time already, never been able to keep a blog so long (and so secret) before. I'll try to update more soon.