it's the 3rd week into the holidays. I'm re-adjusting myself to actually not do work and its quite hard since I'm too used to working. Been partying a lot, getting drunk on shitloads of whatever and spending plenty of money while at it.

I can sense a growing rift at home, especially more so between my dad and my brother. As much as I hate what's going on, I can't entirely fault my brother but then I also cannot take sides so it's getting kind of irritating, thats the reason why I'm staying out as much as I can.

I'm finally back with SSFC, my match fitness is shit but at least I scored 2 in last week's friendly so I'm slowly getting my touches back. I cant wait for the world cup to begin, once every 4 years and I really hope Holland won't disappoint me again. Coming to think of it, it was the last world cup where I met my ex gf Pam. Now right before this coming world cup, I just recently heard she got engaged. I know I need to move on but for some reason, this doesn't interest me anymore.

I need to stop procrastinating and send 2309 for festivals. Whats the point of working hard and then not doing anything once the work is done, not fair for the rest also.

Am I being too choosy or am I just like this naturally?

my fucking computer died and half my portfolio is gone

school is over and i'm feeling sick now

crap.