I've discovered this new app called evernote which I'm now using as a sort of secondary blog/diary and also going to use that to take down notes, write ideas, etc etc simply because its so convenient and i can sync it on both my laptop and my phone, much more readily accessible than this blog. But of course, having said that, I won't ditch this one. I've been using this for a few years and I actually like blowing off steam here once in a while, also mostly because both these accounts have no other readers except me. Well this one I'm aware of one or two people who have this in their RSS feeds but I don't care really.

Its been a long week and its going to get busier. I have an assignment due tmrw, I have my directing exercise shoot on Wednesday and a few other stuff to hand in as well. The 2 films are edging closer and closer, truth be told I've been spending more time preparing for Flutter than Purgatory...I need to re-prioritise soon.

Also, I have still YET to recieve my pay and its fucking annoying the shit out of me. He said he sent out the money order last Thursday so where the fuck is my money? I need it ASAP and I'm sick and tired of being broke. Thats why I fucking hate freelancing sometimes, you work like a dog under pressure for deadlines and they take their own fucking time to pay you.

Fuck your mothers.

new phone, a sony xperia arc and omg the phone is scarily controlling my life i swear

In other news, today is convocation day and from what I know, a lot of my friends are there...I cant be arsed to go, level 2 was a waste of my fucking time.

It's been a horrible week so far. My best friend passed out yesterday after vomitting blood, got rushed to hospital and is now waiting for blood transfusion, its all complications from her medical condition; aplastic anaemia. It's shitty that I can't do anything about it but I really wish nothing happens to her. She's only 21 and she has a full life ahead of her, massively talented girl and it'd be a fucking shame if the World loses someone like her.

Which makes me wonder why is it that the people who deserve to live are all disappearing one by one and the people that you wish were dead just keeps increasing? Sometimes it makes you wonder if Earth is actually hell, f you're actually living your afterlife of punishment over here.

SIFF starts this week, the booklets are out, everything is all the rage and it's pissing the shit out of me. Yes I'm sour. I admit. Everyone is in there except me. I'm still a fucking nobody and I can't stand it. Please for fucks sake stop talking about the SIFF and posting pictures of your name in the booklet because I dont give a fuck.

And the worst part is I can't run away from it because a lot of the events are taking place in my school. Fuck this shit.

Also, can I finally make a film the way I want it to? Without any external influences telling me how it should be made or people questioning me over every little fucking thing? I know what I am doing, I don't need to answer your questions. I know how to make a good film so shut the fuck up and leave me alone.

And now with my friend down, I don't even know if we can make Purgatory because she's supposed to be producing it. Seriously, fuck this month.

Its been a while since I've updated, mostly because I've been too fucking busy.

Pre-production is well underway for my thesis film "Flutter", the story is shaping up well so far and there is that possibility that it will turn out to be a masterpiece, of course, if nothing fucks up.

Its hectic hectic throughout, so many things to do and so little time.