It's been a horrible week so far. My best friend passed out yesterday after vomitting blood, got rushed to hospital and is now waiting for blood transfusion, its all complications from her medical condition; aplastic anaemia. It's shitty that I can't do anything about it but I really wish nothing happens to her. She's only 21 and she has a full life ahead of her, massively talented girl and it'd be a fucking shame if the World loses someone like her.

Which makes me wonder why is it that the people who deserve to live are all disappearing one by one and the people that you wish were dead just keeps increasing? Sometimes it makes you wonder if Earth is actually hell, f you're actually living your afterlife of punishment over here.

SIFF starts this week, the booklets are out, everything is all the rage and it's pissing the shit out of me. Yes I'm sour. I admit. Everyone is in there except me. I'm still a fucking nobody and I can't stand it. Please for fucks sake stop talking about the SIFF and posting pictures of your name in the booklet because I dont give a fuck.

And the worst part is I can't run away from it because a lot of the events are taking place in my school. Fuck this shit.

Also, can I finally make a film the way I want it to? Without any external influences telling me how it should be made or people questioning me over every little fucking thing? I know what I am doing, I don't need to answer your questions. I know how to make a good film so shut the fuck up and leave me alone.

And now with my friend down, I don't even know if we can make Purgatory because she's supposed to be producing it. Seriously, fuck this month.