3 consecutive days of drinking and partying and whatever.

And I also learnt, from 2 different people within the same day that "i'm not a very nice guy".

Yesterday I was so tired after all the lack of sleep, pre-production work and dont know what else I fell asleep at Farrell's place lol. I also avoided the major drinking sessions and opted to just stone one corner with whiskey in hand, taking my own sweet time.

I fell slightly ill and decided to postpone the production meeting to Tuesday instead, that would also give me more time to prepare the documents so I dont end up wasting everyone else's time.

I was pretty impressed with Nadia, the girl whos gonna play Alice. She had the intensity I was looking for though she tends to overact, but thats because shes from a theater background so her style is more expressionist. I had a chat with her over the phone and she seemed really excited to do this because she was tired of all the superficial shit on TV and other films she worked on.

6 more days to the shoot and there's still some ironing out to do. I should be getting the money this week and hopefully I dont burst the budget. I have to remember the deadlines for the film festival submissions.

This is my chance to start the new year with a bang and make my mark somewhere.

Even if it means I have to be labelled a workaholic.

my friends think i'm a workaholic i dont know if thats good or bad

the SPF shoot is done now its time to fully concentrate on pre-production for the banyan tree. Did recce just now and i managed to get most of the locations settled. Bidadari Cemetary is a beautiful place. I hope they dont start clearing the land soon, at least not before my shoot.

Now need to find the victims and the policeman. Do shot breakdown so can do callsheet

auditions on saturday

damn christmas is coming and i havent done anything, not even in the mood sia

wah i fucking cant stand it when people try to tell me how to do my own job

its very sad, nobody gives a shit about the soundman.

christmas is coming soon and i havent bought anything yet.

i need to find an audition venue as well as settle the art dept for my film

i must constantly remind myself never to be gullible

i need to learn how to relax

I'm a fucking misogynist for a reason. I hate females just as much as I hate cats.

Had the first production meeting today together with Sue and Mildie and we had a wide range of pre-production related stuff we had to discuss. So now I need to look at a budget of about $400 and that includes equipment rental (sticking to the basics for that), food and other production allowances and I need to minimise expenditure for art. So we are basically going all guerilla and indie here by improvising a lot of things.

The setback last night was just a mere reminder to me that I should not ever question my own ability even if others think I'm being unreasonable. If I have a goal, I have to go ahead and achieve it regardless of what I could possibly stand to lose (or gain).

I just hope my crew will remain with me throughout and I am trying my best to ensure that everything goes smooth. Now need to source for transport and try to look for more jobs to cover up for the shortfall in cash.

Mabelyn was pretty interested to know what my story was about and I e-mailed her, wonder what her reply will be haha.

Got work tomorrow, saturday, monday and tuesday for this production company as soundman that should pay me another $320 which I will probably use for this film anyway.

Welcome to the harsh realities of life.

Maybe R was right after all...

I should have seen this coming.

Wah my match fitness is shit, i finally made my return to soccer after 2 months by playing in a friendly match at RP on Monday night and of all things, had to miss a clear cut chance. Then the very next day, played futsal at the ECP cage.

Sometimes I find it hard to communicate my thoughts across which is ironic because I was once a communications student and me of all people should know this better. Its pre-production hell for Banyan Tree but I'm very surprised at the response I'm getting for the lead role, I'm getting people who have plenty of acting experience and even foreigners with impressive CV willing to work for free because for some reason, they love the storyline and find it interesting.

I'm starting to talk less about this project because apparently it irritates people so I'll just post my thoughts here. It's intimidating working on such an arrangement because the budget is so tight and we are working with outsiders. There is a very high chance that the whole thing might just screw up. I just hope I dont get let down.

last week was one of the most tiring weeks of my life. 5 day shoot and I had to wake up at about 4+ each day since the crew calltime was 6am...at jurong west!

Then it decided not to rain the whole week and instead, in its place, was the scorching sun. Due to it being mostly outdoor shoots, i got sunburnt and grew abt 6 shades darker.

But Saturday was one hell of a way to end off the week. Awake for 30 hours, after work I went home to change and then headed out to Harbourfront and together with my friends, finished 2 one-litre bottles of JD and Chivas. I didnt drink as much as the rest as I was already tired and high as a kite so I knew my limit and decided to stop.

Zoukout was awesome! And fucking funny as hell when it suddenly felt like Little India. Armin's set was great hahaha fucking stoned now.

Now comes the pre-production nightmare for Banyan Tree

cheebai just now i go foodcourt to buy lunch then i went to one of those mix vegetable rice or whatever the fuck its called, the type you pick out your own ingredients.

so i ordered some stuff then i told the fucker i want the cockles then he look at me and ask me "you sure you want or not?". I said yeah then he said "its $1.50 you sure can or not?" I said yah la then i order for fuck?

CHEEBAI HE LOOK DOWN ON ME AH. I KNOW I NOT VERY RICH BUT I THINK I CAN STILL AFFORD YOUR FUCKING $1.50 PIECE OF SHIT RIGHT? CHEEBAI FUCKER

I spent last night discovering new music, something I havent done in ages. Late night means good trance and house music and I managed to chance upon stuff by Andy Duguid, John O Callaghan and this 15yr old producer called Jonathan Martin. Really kick ass stuff.

HOLY SHIT I DIDNT KNOW THERE WERE ENTIRE PODCAST EPISODES OF A STATE OF TRANCE ON YOUTUBE!?! =DDDDDD

tiring day balls, went to NTU for production meeting, met with the DoP and Producer then went to wilkie to get abused and then play L4D2 for 4 hours.

Tired like dog

are you fucking kidding me? The producer for the NTU shoot told me that they will be shooting their film with an external audio recording device. That's pretty alien to me because all along I've been using devices that still require connection to the camera, hence using the camera's timecode. So i enquired what device they are using.

A Zoom H4N

Okay when I saw Zoom, i suddenly had a weird feeling because Zoom deals with music recording devices. So I decided to do a google search on the device and voilah!

http://www.zoom.co.jp/english/products/h4n/

it IS a music recording device. How the heck is it possible to record a film, using a SD card enabled music recording device?? Its just wrong. And although it does have the functions that enable it to record sound for film, it has 2 inbuilt mics, and 2 more XLR ports for external mics. Sounds fine right?

Now what it doesnt state is whether you are able to disable the internal mics while recording the external ones. If there is an onboard mixer its okay, otherwise I face the bleak possibility of recording way too much ambient noise for the productions' good.

I need to bring this up to them tomorrow. I'd rather they cut a bit of my pay and go rent proper audio equipment than to risk it like this. Furthermore I've never used this device before.

I need to readjust my body clock....at least try...

i cant go on like this, it feels like i'm constantly shooting myself in the foot.


okay i'm booked from the 8th to 12th for a shoot by NTU students and I'm gonna be running sound. Paid assignment so thats pretty good news.

I cant wait for zoukout.

I need to start working on my next solo project. Its very complex i need to start planning ahead, now my biggest headache is where am i gonna find the young jonny syntax,

fuck wednesday must travel all the way to NTU knncbcbcbcb