2309 is done!!!

now time to settle the press kit/dvd designs, etc

Here's a trailer

and yes it looks and feels like a horror film but it isn't entirely one.

I'm still procrastinating fucking hell.

I just got a new phone, a Nokia E72...looks like a Blackberry but it's not. But not bad i think I got a pretty good deal...12GB data a month, free unlimited sms/mms, 400 outgoing calls free...all for 58/mth.

I know it's still early but I'm still stuck between 2 ideas for my diploma film pitch. One is the story of 2 pre-teen boys who are best friends who get seperated but eventually end up getting married to each other after one of them gets a sex-change op many years later, of course not to the knowledge of the other boy.

The other story is about a kid and his friends, how he often hangs out with them and everytime he does, people look at him funny. One day one of his friends somehow lead him to jump into a pool and doesn't help when he ends up drowning. Then we do a reverse and we realise that his friends are actually all imaginary and the reason why he has imaginary friends is because hes abused at home and doesnt get freedom to socialise and thus, creates his own friends.

Still stuck

the NTU film finally got launched and I was glad that the sound came out good, too good in fact. I got praised a lot hahaha and they want to work with me again in the future.

Had a long late night chat with my lecturer and told her about my problems and all the dynamics within the school.

Still feels like something is missing

I'm writing this because I'm waiting for a video to upload and I'm not even sure if it will work.

I'm writing this because I strongly believe that I am an underrated genius.

I'm writing this because I am about to enter the most crucial stage of my semester and I have just completed my 3rd short film in a space of 4 months.

I'm writing this because I am wonderful music coming out of my sennheisers.

I'm writing this because I am loveless and indifferent.

I'm writing this because I am weak and vulnerable.

I'm writing this because I feel used.

I'm writing this because I felt like I finally achieved some recognition for my abilities today.

I'm writing this because I want to be heard.

I'm writing this because it constantly looks as if it's about to rain.

I'm writing this because I only start school at 1pm tomorrow.

I'm writing this because I feel like I have 49 different thoughts running in my head at the same time.

I'm writing this because I think God enjoys playing pranks on me.

I'm writing this because I am starting to get that familiar feeling I had when I used to be depressed back when I was in NS.

I'm writing this because I love what I'm doing.

I'm writing this because I wish that someday, the World will recognise my talents and abilities.

I'm writing this because I feel that I was born in the wrong place.

I'm writing this because I just drank a soft drink so late at night.

I'm writing this because I finally know what a varicam feels like.

I'm writing this because I don't love myself enough.

I'm writing this because I appreciate the people around me.

I'm writing this because I want to see my enemies crash and burn.

I'm writing this because I want to be a nicer person this year.

I'm writing this because I am Siv.

FUXKING PANIC ATTACKS

the shoots are done!!! Now time to keep track of all the films I've worked on so far this year alone

The Banyan Tree - Dir. Sivaraj Pragasm (Writer/Director/Editor)
Ring on a Finger - Dir. Susanna Soon (Director of Photography)
The Other Cho (T.O.C) - Dir. Cho Yeijin (Camera Operator)
My Name is Samad - Dir. Ruzaimah Abuamin (Director of Photography)
The Road Home - Dir. Daryl Nah (Director of Photography)
Jonny Syntax - Dir. Sivaraj Pragasm (Writer/Director/Editor)
Dragon Well - Dir. David Ee (Gaffer)
Red Shoes - Dir. Mads K. Baekkevold (Audio Post/Sound Design)
2309 - Dir. Sivaraj Pragasm (Writer/Director)
Mr. Mime - Dir. Joycelyn Lee (Art Director)

10 films in a period of 4 months!!

3 as writer director, 3 as DoP, the rest as audio post, gaffer or cam op and even one as art director, the one that concluded recently. No wonder I have no life.

Having said that, I can't wait to see the final product of 2309; my biggest film to date starring real professional actors and of course, time to start preparations for my next film, Keagan's Story. An adaptation of a short story I wrote last year. That one's gonna be killer.

The shoot went fucking smoothly and we didnt burst our budget or the scheduled timing. Morale was high throughout and all the cast and crew did great. It was really awesome to get comments from professional actors telling us how good we are.

Cant wait to see the final product.

Now on to Art Director mode for Joy's shoot.