I AM HIGHHHHHHHHHHH

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fuck i feel bad i asked my dad to buy back dinner he bought back 2 packets this was at 6pm i got home at midnight and saw the 2 packets still outside, wanted to eat them but they smelt funny (obviously) fuck now i feel bad.


no wonder my parents dont rweallyl like me la im quite a fucked up son.

i think they secretly wish i fuck off asap since im like not earning any money and contributing to the family blahhhhhh

now i remember why i was so depressed that time it all stemmed from this

fuck fuck fuck its not like i dont want to work what...i just cant seem to find any jobs and im the kind of person i need to like what im doing thats the reason why i dont follow people's advice and just take ANY job i can find. i find this whole logic fucking stupid,. So if you find a job which you dont like but it pays then whats the point? you wake up, go to work go back home sleep and wake up to work the next day its just the same vicious fucking cycle over n over again. no wonder people kill themselves.

i know what im doing in life is definitely unconventional but at least i enjoy what im doing...fuck now what i need to do is to find a way to make money while at it. its the whole financial issue that is pissing me off.

fuck la i dont want to work for other people. i like doing my own thing and living my own life i dont see why i have to follow everyones ideology of "ok work for this company, let them exploit you but its all for your own good cos u will gain experience".

experience ki lan la...i know how to learn something fast...whatever ppl take 3 mths to do i can do in 3 weeks i dont need to subject myself to such bullshit just fr the sake of experience fuck that.

people probably think i dont know what im doing with my life, i say fuck them, fuck the people who believe in such shit, fuck the conformists and fuck you for reading this and disagreeing with me.