i watched Notorious today and even though i was never into the whole hip hop rap thing, i still think it was an awesome movie.

Just now i was thinking about my ex, not thinking as in missing but thinking about how the past 3 years have been. How when i was in NS and we were messaging each other every other day, how we would meet up while i was clearing leave and she was in her JC uniform after school and smoke. At that time she hadnt started smoking yet. How things were always so rosy and interesting, the so-called honeymoon period. Those days when i was really happy and we had all these cutesy couple shit going on.

And how over the months things started to get a bit more tense due to our frequent clashes, in personality.

Post-breakup, i still think it was both good and bad. Good in the sense that i feel more liberated and relaxed now but bad because i lost someone i knew. We deleted each other off MSN and Facebook not too long ago and even though we have a lot of mutual friends, the chances of us bumping into each other is pretty high. I have mixed feelings about this whole thing.

Of course i embrace singlehood and the freedom and all but deep down I just wished it wouldnt have ended up like this, from love to hatred.

Maybe thats how life rolls.