I havent been able to update in a while due to my busy schedule. Juggling school work with a 35mm shoot with pre-production plans for my new short-film to be shot this December. Really a lot of work to do.

I am currently in the midst of a black and white silent film shoot with a Singapore based Spanish director and I'm 1st Assistant Director. Although its good to be an AD as you have a lot of power and responsibility on set, I also just hate the idea of doing all the paperwork and shit.

I'm still pretty sour with the fact that so many people I know, including classmates are going to have their works showcased outside, and especially on SIFF. What do I have? Nothing! Its fucking annoying, yes I can be happy for them but sorry, I'm not a carebear or a spectator. I get into this to get things done, to achieve things. I don't want to just sit down and cheer other people on, thats not my purpose in life. I hate the fact that everyone got their chance except me, and the worst part is I don't even know who to blame. First of all I was forced into the situation and then I wasnt allowed to make the most out of it, so what am I supposed to do?

So Fuck SIFF, Fuck PSOF. I'm going to give it one more shot, nothing to do with school anymore, I dont give a fuck about my thesis film honestly, what I'm really giving a fuck about is my new upcoming short-film, Purgatory. I am going to vest so much hope in this film its basically do or die. This film will basically gauge how much of a film maker I am, or at least how deserving I am. Because I know I can make good films if I'm given a chance. And now I really hope nothing fucks up this chance.