holy shit just now was fucking scary i almost hit a motorcyclist cos the fucker totally went into my blind spot and i made that mistake of not checking thank god the instructor helped me swerve in time which didnt do any good to my ego. Yes i know that most L plate drivers always stall their engines or make stupid mistakes L plate drivers do and i think i am one of the better L plate drivers out there as my instructor claims but stupid mistakes like this must NEVER happen....fucking kick in the face.

im still wondering if fatty is a good option because that will mean i have to teach him from scratch and i dont really have the time this is so bloody annoying. Ravin is in and i still cant seem to contact ben so now all im left with is a 2nd guitarist and effects controller.

pam or fatty? at least i know one of them wont suddenly get emo attack and start threatening to leave the band.

i think im starting to cool down after the incident. poor woman seems depressed but better not to talk for now lest i say the wrong things and fuck things up for her. can tell she trying to catch my attention by giving me youtube links, something she never done before....nice video though.

i also realised love is a funny thing. You can have so much of anger and hate over it but it will still be there....who am i kidding lol.