oh my god im so fucking hungry

baybeats today was good i was quite surprised electrico actually sounds good but i was even more impressed with that band i forgot the name the one with the female drummer fuck for a moment they sounded like deftones and then suddenly they sounded like muse.

i went alone and just as i had expected, bumped into random people i know here and there...was surprised to see hanz though.

soccer match was disappointing missed a clear cut chance the fucking 4 weeks of no action didnt take a toll physically but i sure as hell was rusty and it didnt help that the field was so fucking small run run run like a fucking dog and i will never get the ball also. shitty that i got substituted

i really want to start this band and start writing my own stuff. i know i have a lot of ideas in my head but i guess one thing at a time. at the end of the day a band is a team effort, one person fucks up and the whole band goes to hell i been through that so many times and that probably explained why i never made it. its quite sad to see so many bands out there playing mediocre to good shit but i can never get an act together, fuck this.

i wonder how tomorows bands are gonna be like...i need to start going for gigs again, i need to start jamming again, i need to start playing my bass again and most importantly, i need to start writing new stuff again. I think i might get fatty into the band, i never really involved him in anything so far...maybe this could bea start, provided he doesnt fuck up.